40 Something Woman
First of all caffeine is essential. It only became fully essential after the age of 30. Now, I’m unable to manage without it. Fact.
Also, there are so many things I really couldn’t care less about anymore. Was it the pandemic? Maybe. Make-up was not an essential in my life, but these days my seven year old daughter probably wears more than I do.
Things I have to accept, even if I don’t want to: parts of me will be wobbly and loose now until I die. The collagen production has halted, and no amount of exercise, starving, walking, sucking in my stomach or planks will ever reverse that. And, actually, that’s ok. I do hate the sudden appearance of crow’s feet, though.
Finally, for now, why is it so hard for me to get up in the morning, feel tired all day, go to bed, and then be unable to actually fall asleep until past midnight? The joys…
But…would I go back to my twenties or thirties? Maybe to get rid of my weird left-sided back ache and sore shoulder, yes. But, really, the answer is no. I couldn’t go through all the angst and worry about what other people think again.
Being nearly 42 isn’t so bad.